Tasteless...

Oooh well, it's been a very long time since my last post.
Never got something to really write, but I do now. .

Oh well, I got things stuck in my head.
You know what, I feel like I've been set and caught in a trap recently.
I don't like being controlled but I know how weak I am when it comes to the matter of heart.
I want to take over my own mood... Again.
I've been sucked enough into dark abyss of confusion, I hate to know nothing.
But I can never find a book nor a source to look for the answer to the question I've been dealing with...
Days are passing by with smile and lively-look but then gloom, question mark(s), and puzzlement fill me later on.
How long should I be hanging on? with uncertainty. I don't want to give up that easily, But!
But, is this worth waiting? Tell me.