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Life is silly yet even more confusing.
Flap my wings and fly to indefinite height.
With no one can see me
but I see everyone
Good girl may not be afraid
Stand tall with head facing up..
On my own knees i gotta survive
and my Life must go on..

wanna shout and run. step out for a while!

It is late at night and I cannot sleep.
no reason just cannot sleep.
friends are cuddling with their cushions.
so I stuck with my dearest helpful PC.
i'm telling you this is my random writing. no meaning no point of writing it

i am relieved today, tonight for exact. i have no more guilt. i am ready for whatever it is in front of me.letting you stay behind, enough is enough, no more walking round with my head down i'm so over being blue crying over youuu.. . . *let me sing this song for you haha

and now i am scared.. .. .
i am not certain of what's coming to me. too fast and too . . . simply too fast.i am certain of nothing now, believing what i am not certain of i cannot. at least not for now
i'll give some more time let's see how it is passing by yeaaaaaaaaaaa
rrrrrrrrr
i am sleepy but i cant sleep matters are flowing back and forth thru my neurons with no space for me to have a break and rest for a while.
let's hoping i am not deceived, hoping what i see is not a mirage but a real water stream.
windy as i am.moody as always. dear windman, dont let me down... . .

sleep sleep dear me.
sleep sleep sleep i am tired
sleep sleep sleep as if life can be as easy as eyes blinking.blink blink blink.
good night. . .... . ... .



Love, ms Hope

Loving or Possesing?

Aside of the quote "love and hate are like two sides of coin"
i have a quote generated by my own thought. .
"Loving and possessing someone are utterly different. Yet they look the same"
[Intanasa]


when you love someone...
you won't feel any consternation for a goodbye, no dread of losing him because your love is simply dimensionless.
wherever he is, alive or lying dead; visible or invisible; nanometers or zillion kilometers apart; your love will always be there, willing for eternal waiting.
everything he does, he did or he'll do... none of them is disaster for you and none of his trait bothers you.you'll somehow find yourself easily get used to them and at ease to get along with it. you are perfectly tolerable.loving him for what he is.no complaints, no grouch just courage, tender care, willingness, and LOVE. . of course..
whenever he feels happy, you'll happy too for his happiness. it is a relief for you to see him happy even if it is not because of you. And one thing, a perfect lover will know whether the happiness is real for him or just simply deceiving. your sacrifice is unlimited. whatever it takes to make him have the best.. You'll be happily do it!

but, when you are possessing someone...
losing him is listed in top 10 fear in your life. cause it's not your love but your possession you will never bear to lose. for any reason, even it is for the sake of good things. education, world service, anything. you never believe in the power of love, the power that love is dimensionless. that love is for you to give, not for you to receive back..

i was once possessed. it's hard to get out, cause i thought that was love, a too tender love, but now i have realized.i am free now. it is like I've been given a new pair of eyes, a better one, to see a new life, a better life as well.
all i can repetitively saying is. Thank God



Love, Asa